dreamfufilled-life

2009-09-09T19:59:00.000+08:00

haha today was retarded
thank you grace, zoey, kash, pris and vid for coming over ((:
you made my day
hahaha good to have studied with you guys. i hope you all accomplished something, at the very least
heehee

blogger is kinda getting seriously screwed?
i think i may have to consider like moving over to xanga or wordpress soon

2009-09-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

woah i dont believe this. 4 hours of maths continuously. gosh gosh gosh. but thank god for it. at least i wont be so blur to trig now.

trig just refuses to get into my head. TIME AND AGAIN. rahs! oh wells

hmmm. choosing confirmation name. this should be fun. sometimes i wonder. should i just choose another name and use it. then i'll forget everything that happened.

haha. still playing around with a couple of names in my mind. oh goodness someone help me choose!

2009-09-07T17:21:00.000+08:00

today was an utter shit crap
carded a score of 55.
at least i maintained.

i need to be able to keep going. i need to be able to sustain beyong just 4 holes.
rahs.

anyway gg to sleep now. i feel like a zombie.

2009-09-02T21:15:00.000+08:00

this is just another of my rantings post
people you can just ignore this

i wonder how fast some people's emotions can change
few months they treat you like you are the world to them
and you expected that it would not last
and true enough few months later you become totally invisible
then suddenly they talk to you again
treat you nicely
for a short period of time
and then back to ignoration
i feel like a freaking storeaway
then again, probably thats what i am to you.

2009-09-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

cant believe teachers day is over over over so fast
wishing all teachers happy teachers day anyway

haha yesterday was a bomb blast
HAHA. really good em-ceeing vidhya.
exp you nearly blasted my eardrums off
LOL. nice videos
and mr ang won most dedicated teacher. hmms expected
HAHA. and the new teachers dance was good (:

gave out all the presents. got rid of i think close to 1kg weight
i wonder how mr sng even brought home his present from vidhya
hahahaha.

today slacked whole day. then went practise.
6 more days 6 more days
I WILL OWN THE STAGE.
okay not the stage. erm
THE COURSE?!
hahaha. my fingers are covered with blisters. doesnt seem like an unfair exchange for a medal?
wish me good luck people.
6 more days

p.s. we dint get in for child aid. i bet MGS did.

2009-08-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

dont wish on a star
you know why
because when you do
its for nothing

believe me cos i've tried.
so many times
i'm tired of trying

anyway, YAYE to 3N we rocked
SPORTS DAY 09 DOMINATION!

2009-08-25T19:23:00.001+08:00

hi. test test (:

2009-08-25T19:19:00.001+08:00

i realised i've learnt one very important lesson today.
and that is, NEVER to expect and hope too much
the higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment
how true

2009-08-23T18:43:00.002+08:00

SDYR 09 ((:

my life in in you lord
my strength is in you lord
my hope is in you lord
is in you
is in you

strength will rise as we wait upon the lord
wait upon the lord
we will wait upon the lord
strength will rise as we wait upon the lord
wait upon the lord
we will wait upon the lord
our god, you reign forever
our hope, our strong deliverer
you are the everlasting god
the everlasting god
you do not faint
you wont grow weary
you comfort those in need
you lift us up on wings like eagles

it was AWESOME. AWESOME
((: hahaha bleahs to those who dint go you missed something totally amazing HAHAHA
i shall go help out the next time XD
ended up with slight fever and now habouring a super bad throat but WHO CARES

haha
we've set our hopes on the living god, who is saviour of all, and especially of those who believe

2009-08-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

i realised i need to

1. buy teachers day present
2. buy teachers day present
3. buy teachers day present
4. buy teachers day present
5. buy teachers day present
.
.
.
.
you get the idea

I WANNA GO WATCH UP!
anyways, where got ghost is a really good show if you're stressed out and you wanna laugh your guts out. no joking
hahaha.

screw art

2009-08-17T19:23:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling kinda lazy so i'm gonna post in point form today.

1. arsenal crushed everton 6-1. YAYE!
2. sabre dance is stuck in my head shit
3. handbell crazy weekend was fun
4. shit now i have to go back to studying geog and lit
5. bio sucked. i think i failed yes?
6. my hand pain
7. gosh shit who the hell is DEDE ERI SUPRIA. help!
8. ms chng is gonna kill me for missing handbells

okay thats all dude. my life sucks big time i know
i lead a boring life

2009-08-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

i cant believe i slogged the whole national day on art

thank god its finish ZOMG
i'm half dead and i just wanna go zonk out on my bed, so tata all of you.

2009-08-09T19:00:00.000+08:00

happy national day all (:
i'm stinking at home hahaha

2009-08-06T19:27:00.000+08:00

handbell room aircon spoil
what the heck,
i almost died haha.
we all almost died.
rah i cant wait till we get back to the actual campus. THEN IT'LL BE NEW AIRCON without all these crazy problems LOL.
haha.

2009-08-04T22:08:00.000+08:00

after like i dunno how long training resumed again zomg YAYE
hahaha XD went to course and i almost scored my first birdie
WL EH I MISSED BY LIKE WHAT. 2 FEET?!
): needa start training for sep tournament.
so far my best score 49 (: hopefully can get it again
ever since my leg... i've only been getting like what. 55?
oh wells.

new final yr project for art
topic: MY NEIGHBOURHOOD
hmms INTERESTING
bleahs. i still havent completed fashion design leh!
rah

2009-07-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

art is hanging me upsidedown
soon its gonna hang me the rightside up

anyway, lit CT next week
needa start mugging. to pull up my grades from midyrs
oh wells.
handbells tmr (: like FINALLY

oral's tmr also. gosh
AHHHHHH

2009-07-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

YES ZOMG LISTENING IS OVER
yaye yaye yaye
it was kinda crap and i sat at the worse seat but haiyo who cares. its over thats what matters hahaha

yesterday racial harmony was quite good ((: 3N got 11 ppl wear costume leh WOOHOO!. next yr must have more ((:

i cant wait for express yourself day. HAHAHHA YAYE YAYE YAYE. okay i'm super hyper today i dunno why

anyway, 7 ppl absent. everyone's getting fever ):

2009-07-21T22:43:00.001+08:00

life sucks. thats the reality of it

you cant please everyone, you just hope that whoever who marks your olevel paper likes your work. thats why art sucks. thats the reality of it.

in fact, thats just the reality of everything

2009-07-18T17:19:00.000+08:00

now i have a black face, literally ):
owwww

2009-07-16T20:13:00.002+08:00

ok i take back my words, 4 days MC is not fun
1 day is fun, 2 days is still fun
but 4 days, you get seriously bored. not joking. ):

rahs. oh wells i think i better get started on that stupid art soon. its irritating gosh!
i just cant seem to come up with some nice ideas :O
and my design looks like crap.
*worried abt what miss teh will say*
stupid origami.
stupid origami.
i really think its plain stupid )):

2009-07-15T20:59:00.000+08:00

ZOMG
my phone bill just came, with the overseas charge from england.
can you believe that one call to my dad, 4 mins, cost a freaking $14.70
OMFG lah.
tip to everyone who goes to england, go get a calling card.
no i'm serious, really, go get one

2009-07-15T11:44:00.002+08:00

i'm SICKKKK
stupid stupid weather. it cant get any BLAHER
staying at home starting to get BORING now.
i've alrd maxed out the amount of entertainment that computer can provide

:O pris says everyone's design is damn nice
mine is KANASAI TTM.
hmmms. i should go and work on it should i?
i'm prorastinating and feeling like a lazy pig
i wanna go back to sleep!

2009-07-13T16:58:00.001+08:00

el nino is back oh rawr
no wonder the weather is turning suckish again bleah

on the side note, restaurant city is fun
i'm hooked haha >.<

2009-07-09T17:05:00.004+08:00

tell me again i made the right choice, or not.
tell me again i made the right choice, or not.
tell me again i made the right choice, or not.

i'm deluded, i'm confused, i'm effing, OH I DUNNO
holy shit crappish thing
midyr results: 4A2s, 2B3s, 1B4, 1C5, 1C6.
i'm... satisfied. some made me happy and some made me wonder... the thought has been written above. last 2 days have been spent surrounded by this thought. people left right and center bringing this up again. and i'm beginning to feel brainwashed.
i hope i haven't.

Lord, i offer up to you my fustrations. may peace soon be brought to me. i ask this through christ your son, who lives and reigns with you and the holy spirit, one god forever and ever. Amen.

2009-07-07T20:44:00.001+08:00

let me ask you a very stupid but very relevant qns
if you get 50.0% for a paper, an examination paper, would you consider yourself lucky or unlucky?
tmr's ssgeog, emaths, amaths, mother tongue paper 2 marks. i cross my heart

2009-07-03T23:08:00.001+08:00

i cant smile
and neither can i cry
that is a horrible feeling

2009-07-01T18:54:00.002+08:00

exams are over (:
hardest was like what EMATHS?
lit was no better. :(( but enough about sad stuff
went to watch ICE AGE with huixian
its a very good show, worth watching people!((:

Cedar got first case confirmed H1N1 alrd. what the rubbish and they are still not closing school, only quarantined classmates, form teacher and pupils who had close contact with her. scariest part is she got no travel history in june hols and no contact with people from known clusters. how in the shitty hell did she get H1N1 anyway. so she went all over school and since virus takes 7 days to manifest, she probably left her germs all over the place alrd. whats the use of sterilising the place when probably thousands of pupils went to the same place, say like canteen.

oh wells. sometimes i think cedar has a weird way of functioning.

2009-06-26T22:51:00.006+08:00

hmm sometimes i wonder whether i should continue stretching myself beyond my limits. will i snap if i go too much beyond. sometimes i feel i should not do this anymore but everything i have done its surrendered to them. sometimes i feel that no matter how hard i try it will never work, i'll just kleep screwing up. lord help me.

anyways today went to school to study with pris. damn it. i still cant finish geog and maths. i'm not some crazy super mugger lol. i wont be able to touch maths at all i realised. holy shit. now just pray like crap that i'll be able to do. i'm not smart lah pris i just work super hard. serious. haha.

(wow so now you are trying to spite me. after all i've done to help you. you are the BEST)

2009-06-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

ferris wheel represents in constant motion. you see half the wheel in greyscale and half in colour, it represents past leading to present, present leading to future, future leading to whatever is beyond, constantly moving. but we have conflicts we face all the time, and sometimes we come back one full circle to what we have just started.
the star represents that no matter what happenes we still have to keep moving on, work towards our goal and that there will always be a star shinning bright in our lives, no matter how dark our sky may be

what rubbish did i just type man. if i died today will i wake up tmr morning in heaven?

2009-06-15T12:52:00.001+08:00

one time too many my dear one time too many
you are simply so intent on getting me to snap right
one time too many i'm afraid
i'm at a lost as to what i'm supposed to do now
3days. what makes you think i can accomplish both jobs in 3 days
when i'd taken more than that with the first
f*ck you

2009-06-10T15:32:00.002+08:00

hello people i'm back from ENGLAND
and england rocks like super alot can!
everywhere v beautiful hahaha. and its cool how much our groups bonded through this period of time ((: london was v brrrrrr cold though... and i thought london will be warmer than the rest. in the end? rainy and drizzling.

yesterday and today jet lag. london behind us by 7 hrs eh. but the trip was really worth it. shakespear, jane austen, bronte sisters, wordsworth etc etc etc. so many different towns. and guess what, london's got good shopping too! tips to those going to london: the crabtree and evelyn there is damn cheap. ((: i think BBC was cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool. hahahaha. quite amazing to see all the behind the scenes.

i'll try to upload pictures but NO PROMISES. i'll go crazy trying to upload all of them. 670 pictureesss can?!

2009-05-22T22:12:00.001+08:00

i threw my face today
anyway MY BLOG IS DEAD OMG
can i please please ask those nice nice people who visit to TAGGGG

2009-05-20T22:16:00.003+08:00

tell me whats the point of studying for tests and exams
when you are going to feel guilt when people arnd you get lower
when ur parents are going to say that ur class is not a good class when you compare your marks against ur classmates
tell me whats the point
because even when you get top in class
you know ur parents are going to say ur class is not a good class

2009-05-17T15:49:00.003+08:00

OMG I FINALLY SAW DAIYANGTIAN LIVE
hahahaha YAY.
peranakan ball was like so frigging nice. and guess what? they used the same taglines as that from the show. like daiyangtian was supposed to be the young master then he introed himseld to the maid as the chaffeur. LOL. okay i think i spelled that wrongly but what the heck. yah so back to my point. its the same as the little nyonya show lol. quite a comedy, and v nice too, the singing. though some of it was OBVIOUSLY recorded. *some people couldnt even lip sync properly* hahaha
anyways, enough of words i think i shall post a few pictures and let them do the "talking" instead.

LOOK at the four beauties who went to watch the musical
hahaha

OMG XIMIN i miss you so much! :( wehh. i waannnaa go out with you!

This is blurred but there you go... Jeanette Aw andddd DAIYANGTIAN. oh wells anyway we didnt manage to go backstage and get the actual pictures with them because OBVIOUSLY we dont have the $118 tickets which allows you to go and meet the cast. but, CHECK THE FOLLOWING OUT. whoots!

HAHAHAA APPLE HONG ((: we got so excited when we saw mediacorp stars walking around. you know she was walking out right in front of us and we keep saying "hello, excuse me" but she didnt hear. in the end had to tap her on the shoulder then she turned around. pssst.

OH OH. FELICIA CHIN. hahaha steph was like "IS THAT FELICIA CHIN! I WANNA TAKE PHOTO WITH HER" so we went to take. we were "queueing up" then this stupid security person came up to us and said what erm, have to clear the place. we were like SO PISSED LA. come our turn alrd. then felicia chin said we go outside then take, so we folllooowww her, then in the end, when the guard go somewhere else she was like "quick quick faster take here!" v funny, but still we got our picture in the end, so YAY!

2009-05-16T10:56:00.002+08:00

oh wow my 100th post finally
okay that was lame.
time flies, so fast sec 4 farewell over alrd.
14th may was sec4 farewell. 14th may was also my grandpa's death anniversary
SEE SEC4s I SO GOOD NEVER GO SEE GRANDPA INSTEAD COME FOR FAREWELL
haha just joking

i'm going to miss the sec4s like shit crap
DOROTHY esp. omg my dear sick and dirty jokes sharing partner. playing beside me since festive and phantom of e opera
GERALDINE! the first person to play high bells w me. we were trying to figure out the notes remember?
GILLIAN remember the flag day at amk hub there. omg damn hot lah! gosh
XP oh gosh! the dialogue session u and ger had with me
ANUSHA my dearest senior since p5. dont worry i'll go same JC as u continue tradition
JIAHUI okayyy erm... morning assembly. sorry for giving u a shock! hahaha

omg later is the peranakan ball. YAY YAY YAY. 8 pm tonight... means its only 9 hours away. AHHHH

2009-05-12T19:32:00.003+08:00

woah today's like one of the most interesting day of my life can... even though only interesting for a few minutes but you know what, i really really thank god for the being able to have this today...

anyway i was coming down from the forth floor, after giving pris her phone... pssstt that woman ah... so forgetful, can leave phone in art room somemore. tsk tsk. okay sidetracking... anyway yeah then when i step onto the 2nd floor near the hall there my heart almost stopped. Ms Nair was bringing some visitors arnd to see the school and guess who. it was mrs bheem, primary school principal. i thought i was hallucinating. then a whole troop of IJ teachers came out of the hall. Ms Chandra, Mrs Geetha, Miss Jessica Ang, Mrs Veera, Miss Imelda and the whole lot of others. omg.

then i went to the third floor. and i saw them all over again and this time round i was like "HELLO MISS CHANDRA!" then she turned arnd, blink blink then started talking to me. damn weird. haha. anyway i thought i was like damn happy alrd hahah. she was like "OH you're from IJ! which level are you in alrd?" then when i told her she was like "Wow time flies doesnt it!"

haha i was still in a state of shock then. then i saw yvonne haha. started talking to her in the foyer. then we were talking about IJ also. then suddenly mrs bheem they all walked past the foyer. yvonne and i took a chance and waved at her. then she stopped in her tracks. then she was like totally shocked! then she said something like "HELLO GIRLS!" and yvonne and i practically ran to her and hugged her. then ms nair was laughing at us but whatever. then the whole troop of IJ teachers was like "hi, hi, hi". and you know what, its AMAZING. yvonne and i could greet almost EVERY teacher... damn funny we were like "hi so and so, hi so and so, oh mrs so and so" etc. oh here comes the jaw-dropping part.
got one teacher... shit whats her nameee. oh mrs morrier. she was like looking at me then she said "OH i remember you. you went to brisbane with us in... 2006. you still have the same face" i was like totally shell shocked lah. i mean she teached so many students can still remember me.

haha. they're planning to move in ermm 2012 i heard. so maybe... that time i'll be able to visit more often since its like SO FRIGGING NEAR MY HSE. hahahah. omg i'm motivated to go back ans visit IJ like now! okay... i shall find a time. I SHALL.

2009-05-11T20:27:00.002+08:00

i feel like sleeping now
zzz damn tired
shall update abt cedar lit up

cedar lit up was a BLAST ((:
yup yup. everything went like almost perfectly
to think i almost had a breakdown because of stupid speech
RAH stupid me
anyway thank thank thank THANK god that the actual day was PERFECT
thank you god!
welldone to the rest of the cast! Farhain, Tiffany, Vidhya, Darshana, Nanthini, Stephanie, Huaywen, Sukaa and the rest of the fairyyys
oh and not to forget the lovely directors ahahha.

anyway, were you serious about helping with the 's' and the 'f's, MS?

okay thats seriously just stupid blabbering, the previous sentence. ignore that people. if it applies to you you'll understand what i mean but if you dont, butt outt! okok.

long weekend over in another 4 hrs. sighhh time passes really fast. I DUN WAN GO BACK SCH TMR. not just yet. i'm not readddyyyy!

2009-05-06T09:53:00.002+08:00

today's post will be half happy half sad

anyway, 30th april 09 marked the end of our syf journey. thank you everyone for making it such an enjoyable one, sharing tears, laughter and retardedeness. thank you sarah, jiahui, isabel, hazel, xinping, gillian, zhihui, enrica, elizabeth, deepa, shannon, songya, yunjie, anusha, amanda, geraldine, evangeline, dorothy, alicia, zhuoen, rachel, maria, sudhisha, felicia. all 24 of you will always have a special place in my memory. thank you for making it such a happy journey together.

especially to alicia and dorothy. thanks for all the "gossiping" moments. i love you guys LOADS AND LOADS. dorothy, i'm going to miss you ALOT ALOT when you step down. must come back and visit ME ah!

even though we got only that yucky color of a silver, as least we know we have tried our best. we've worked ourselves to the fullest yes? haha. i love you guys and SYF'09 will be the BEST in my entire life. as how SYF'06 is still etched deep in my memory ((:

2009-04-29T20:59:00.001+08:00

tmr tmr tmr tmr tmr
omg tmr is the day
tmr tmr tmr tmr tmr

time dont walk, dont run but
FLIES...
like yesterday we started playing the 2 songs

dang it. tmr tmr tmr tmr
AHHH *panic attack*
-calms down-

my ankle. WILL NOT. buckle tmr
yes it WONT
all the best everyone

2009-04-27T20:14:00.002+08:00

3 days to syf and i feel as though i can just die
HEH i'll be happy and sad when this is over
happy cos there wont be so much stress anymore
and sad because... oh there's no more syf to look forward too

i'm going to frigging miss dorothy
I"M GOING TO FRIGGING MISS DOROTHY

my leg is going to pek alrd. and so its my hand
oh shikes i just noticed a blister. AHHH

2009-04-24T20:46:00.002+08:00

you know what
i think everyone's getting tired of my posts, cos they are either
1. SYF
or
2. my leg

bleahs. too bad peeps you gotta bear with me
i'm sorry. anyway yesterday's fulldress was rather okay. as in like we played... hmm.. not bad ((: so yups ((: preety good in fact((:
haha. handbell choker is CHOKING yucks.
its so ITCHY! omg. i sincerely hope it doesnt affect our performance next week.
gold with honours gold with honours gold with honours.
argh. we need that gold with honours.
anyway my leg had better be oh-ki-zay next week i tell you
*if i'm going to practically just chop it off yucks!*
omg i just realised can! 6 more days...
today's angel's standard dropped abit. WHY! sad. must go back up, up, up.
WE HAVE TO BE IN TOP FORM!
oh welllss. the rest i thought was not bad, at least our problems NOT SO BIG ALRD.

haha. today physio was horrible
:( the stupid exercise i did just slaughtered my leg can!
so many therapy today. they even tied a bag of ice to my leg cos it was so pain after that stupid exercise :( must ren! BEAR WITH IT. I MUST.
electrical therapy and ultrasound therapy and dunno what else...
now its throbbing. HOPE it will be better tmr! cos there's CEDAR LIT UP practise! omg.

2009-04-24T08:35:00.001+08:00

now's english
and I AM SO BORED
oh wells. my leg's breakingggggg
:( heh. shall update again tonight abt the prac yesterday and everything else

2009-04-22T16:36:00.000+08:00

i was bored in school.
so, bored, plus sleepy, plus sitting near a mad poet, plus raining day
came up with this super lame poem. LOL
so people you're gonna have to bear with it. TOO BAD. heh
((:

The clouds are gathered, conferencing,
disagreements are now raging
dark, dark, here comes the dark

The Wind shows her interest,
she's sailing on first
breeze, breeze, here comes the breeze

now nature joins in, to sway with joy
trees and plants, in the soil
rustle, rustle, here comes the rustle

its too dark the heavens complain,
it sents a bolt of flame
light, light, here comes the light

the gods are enjoying,
they rumble with pleasing
thunder, thunder, here comes the thunder

now its too heavy, its too cold
its too noisy, its too bright
rain, rain, here comes the rain.

i need to go and do disgusting painting for art
yucks. okay shall blog again tonight ((:

2009-04-21T19:25:00.000+08:00

haiyo today i got alot alot ALOT to say leh
haha shall start with SYF first. 9 more days omg 9 MORE DAYS
today's prac was goooooooodddd
angels was damn nice haha WELLDONE TO RACHEL, ALICIA, DOROTHY, EVANGELINE and obviously ME. hahahah. must do like that on SYF day yays. yucks to the heels though. i'm going to die in them next week. or maybe not, cos i'll be high on painkillers((:
so people, if ya see me laughing like mad hyenas, dont blame me!

:( i wanna eat ben and jerry's ice cream! when everyone was out eating FREE CONES, i was stuck at doctor's office getting MRI report. oh wells, what has to be done has to be done. but still I WANT TO EAT BEN AND JERRY'S ICE-CREAM.
rah rah rah

anyways report was rather good. yay. it says something like my ligament was slightly frayed cos repairing from previous tear. -.- diaosz anyway, the doctor go tell me dunno what, physio can alrd, but if after 1 month no good then must go do surgery. zhong he yan zhi, surgery is like last last LAST option lorh. hahaha

anyway art lesson today was EEEE-YUCKS. haha my drawing i swear is getting from bad to worse. either that or else everyone is getting better. to make myself feel happier i shall say that its everyone else getting better. then at least right, i'm not deproving. yes okay lame i know. paint paint paint i MUST paint finish that stupid chain and lock by next tuesday -then i can go handbells- heh. i think all the teachers forget next week still got handbells SYF. siao lah 4 TAs next week can! compre, chemistry, lit mockingbird and lit unseen prose. BLEAHS.

but then again what to do, its LIFE. i'm looking forward to celebration dinner next thursday.
9 more days to SYF, 9 more days to GWH, 9 more days to celebration dinner ((:

2009-04-20T21:46:00.001+08:00

i should start revising for MYEs
haha SLACKKKK

(:

2009-04-20T19:37:00.001+08:00

haha dunno how long i never have 4 hr practise alrd
LOL leg damn pain, but its okay
painkillers! haha i'll be living on them next thursday
alot of improvement in the songs, so good job people haha

ALICIA I WANNA TALK TO YOU ABT CATS MUSICAL

okay that was seriously random, but what the heck
hahaha. 10 more days to syf. time REALLY flies can!

congrats to choir for getting GWH. great job...((:
handbells, dont be pressurized. we know we can do it too
and after all, its the process that matters the most

and i'm still stuck in CATS MUSICAL craze.
omg MEMORIESSSSS...

2009-04-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

NEW SKIN PEOPLE((:
more cheery((: yay!

MUSICCCCCC

2009-04-19T21:15:00.000+08:00

11 more days to syf

11 more days of intense practise
11 more days of the 2 songs
11 more days of BONDING

i cant believe how fast time can fly.. wl seems like only a short while ago we started playing these 2 songs. and now, less than 2 weeks to SYF. we've come a long way... THE FINAL LAP. WE CAN DO IT.

RECORD BREAKING TEAM

[edit]
after reading the CHE blog and several posts... have some questions to post to all
no offense to whoever who wrote it but yeah
how the shit do you measure commitment?
i mean how can you say that a person is not committed at this point of time?
if she wasnt committed, do you think she'll alrd be coming for all practises?
i'm not defending myself or anyone, just sharing my views((:
please dont take offense. yups

2009-04-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

MRI SCAN IS FRIGGING NOISY
yes it is.
anyone going for mri scan please bring a pair of ear pluggsss
((: results on tuesday. cross my heart its either
1. CAN OPERATE
2. PHYSIO WILL MAKE IT OKAY
and not
3. CANNOT OPERATE AND PHYSIO NO USE

yes((:
2/3... thats 66% okay, so yups, i'm going to look on the bright side
YAY. physio was also okayyy not too bad. no more tape on my ankle. haha
more comfortable now yoz

HSK exam today. 170 questions fried my brains. LOL
can you believe the last question ask right... then the ans is xi ying (attract)
Then my brains were so fried i forgot how to write ying
walao. and er duo (ear) for a moment i also forget how to write the duo
HAHA. brain shut down at the 100th question alrd.
*if i can pass, i'll xie tian xie di*

CATS musical was like damn FAB
i love that lady who sang the "memories"
haha((: MY FAVOURITE SONG SUMMORE CAN
her voice was like wah shiok... POWER
and that stylio cat person was damn cool too
the cast actually interacted with the audience... good cos people will be more alert
their props and lighting ahhh... no comments ((:
SUPER GOOD. go watch if possible ((:

okay shall end here (:

2009-04-14T19:58:00.000+08:00

I WENT FOR PHYSIO TODAY
which actually means i'm on my road to recovery
yay!
thanks everyone for being with me while i got over the initial shock and disbelief.
thanks everyone for helping me get over that denial

MRI scan on friday
then we'll see how bad my injury is and determine whether or not i need the surgery
follow up next tuesday with doctor
prior to that, physio session 2 on friday too...
COUNTDOWN TO BEING TIGGER STARTS NOW!

2009-04-08T19:03:00.000+08:00

jie said i have to blog more. OKAY here goes
hahaha
on the happy note: I'M IN TALENT DEVELOPMENT
something i never ever ever ever thought i'll be in
today was damn funny...
tried lit play in class. i never knew midsummer's night dream could be so laugh-fable
HAHAHAH.
can you believe it? i'm some fairy queen person LOL
other details... come watch urself on 8may ((:
anyways((: daddy complained that i everytime got last minute thing. not happy )):
sigh, i hope mummy will be happy though... with the TD thingo ((:

2009-03-29T19:54:00.000+08:00

i should start coming to terms with it

peeloon says its only 2 yrs, 2 yrs which i should spend trying to keep my interest burning and not give up, 2 yrs which i should concentrate on doing other things, 2 yrs which i should concentrate on my recovery.

joshua says i should get over darius because a man like him is not worth my love.

then again, can i do it? Holy shit saying is so easy.
doing it, however, a whole new different thing
2 yrs MC, cannot do anything. and then after 2 yrs, surgery
surgery then 6 weeks cast, 12 weeks crutches
2-3 months of physical therapy
whole recovery course takes 6 month

try seeing people running around and jumping here there everywhere
and YOU not being able to do either.
try doing that
try seeing your ex almost every week and have him treat you like a stranger
try being me

WHY IS LIFE SO FRIGGING UNFAIR

2009-03-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

I DUN WAN TO GO OAC
shit you

2009-03-05T20:58:00.000+08:00

wow
syf is on 30th april
shit shit shit shit
song is crappily not stuck in my head
failed chem failed eng. amazing right? i know
my grades are going DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN the frigging drain
shit HELP
and M_ T_ _ is NOT helping with the redo of this work and the redo of that work
AND NO CHANGE IN MARKS i'm frigging not a robot ass!
i've alrd gotten heaps of scoldings because of this
-.- what the-
and golf comp is in 2 weeks
i lost my touch
BESIDES vidhya is saying i'm not trusting her and shit etc
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!

on the other side, thanks for the prep talk M.S. (:

2009-02-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

what is wrong with me
bloody hell, i feel like a tap thats spoiled
cannot off

i cry at every single thing
THANK YOU VIDHYA FOR MENTIONING IT TO THE WHOLE WORLD
i really appreciate it, ALOT
you know, its nice to know that everyone thinks i'm a cry baby now
hmms i am so loving my new role: crybaby

its not that i frigging want to be right?
i juat cannot control it
at the slightest thing i cry
yes its stupid i know
my problems seem super small when compared to others

why do i seem to feel like i'm losing the plot over here?
where has all my friends gone?
phoebe? sarah? i hardly get to see you guys now a days
am i really that repelling?
my temper is shit nowadays
why why why why why?!
WHY

oh gosh, end this madness, make me sane
make me sane, ever again.

2009-02-14T19:19:00.000+08:00

i cant believe it
i cant believe it
I CANT BELIEVE IT

cedar fiesta is OVER.
one and a half month of crazy planning, crazy proposals, discussions and working, all over alrd
the crowd was good. i was so scared because its vday, no one wanna come. LEAVE YOUR MARK AT CEDAR, by 3N was a huge success, thank you everyone ((: i love you. the banner is really PREEETTY. ((: all your artistic sense, helping people to wash hands, collectiong money, mend stalls, all came to a huge good close. we've come a long way and are really bonded now... let it not stop at just this.

we made $533 people! $533!

haha.

D came today. i felt so happy to see him. and yet he acts like he dont know me. or is it just me? how would i know. A came too... with Corde. haha they were like PLAYING BRIDGE at the wooden benches. like WHO plays bridge at a funfair? i know, A and Corde and their friends. HAHAHAH.

2009-01-13T18:06:00.000+08:00

1k. i need 1k!
i need to save 1k for my TRIPZ...
scrimp, thrift, work.
1k i can do it!
1k into my pocket please!

2009-01-12T18:19:00.000+08:00

well done magnificent class of 2008
we're proud of you((:
haha. ave msg of 9.0. whoots
and congrats to senior jayu who broke record for CSP with an A1
YAY

guess what. only 4 people do not qualify for JC
and only 4 people fail hcl
wl.

stress on batch of 09 and batch of 10(us)
09 dont do well, 10 have to pull up
09 do well, 10 have to continue trend.
hehe oh wells((:

TMRS HALF DAY ANYWAY!
YAY YAY YAY

2009-01-11T19:59:00.000+08:00

I CAN GO TO MANCHESTER
I CAN GO ON THE LITERATURE TRIP!
WHOOOOOTTTTTSSSSSSSSSSS

2009-01-11T17:56:00.000+08:00

12th jan 2009
7th day of school
why does school alrd feel like its been going on forever?
tired tired so tired
blues:(

anyways, goodluck to D and all those receiving olevel results tmr
you'll do fine i believe ((:
smiles

2009-01-10T23:06:00.001+08:00

one step at a time
i dont wanna sink deep
i wanna spend my time FREE
i shall distance

how much do you know about me?

2009-01-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

damnit
here comes all the stress. gosh
the subjects are okayy... but kindof need much getting used to
ALOT ALOT OF DIFFERENCE OKAYY
like in art you're chucked one bloody picture and asked to DRAW immediately
and in bio you're given hw on first day of sth
and in ssgeog have to do DEBATE on just the 2nd day of lessons

oh wells
CEDAR FIESTA is coming up
anyone wanna come?!
haha its on valentines day yoz, bring ur gfs and ur bfs.
hahaha.
mad school. classes all have to submit proposal by next monday
and guess what, 3Neon hasnt decided on what stall we wanna operate yet.
sighhh... HOW

anyways... my new yr resolution:
i am going to be a better assistant monitress than i was a secretary. and i shall be NICE to everyone (esp even when i'm angry).

and and... I WANNA GO ON LIT TRIP!
its like to MANCHESTER and OXFORD and LONDON
10 days 10 days
but the cost a bomb with a big bombshell
anyone nice enough to sponser?
preety please...

2009-01-05T18:55:00.000+08:00

effing shit
you dint even have the courage to CALL ME and clean things up
and i feel such a loser
i cant even BRING MYSELF TO HATE YOU
i hate myself

shit to my feelings
shit to me
shit to YOU and your consequences

"i dint have the control over the consequences, lene"
no control YOURSELF
i still count the effing days
i still COUNT it
and all you can say is to ask me to LET GO

fish. i wanna hate you, and push you away
i wanna ask you to fish off
the words just wont come out when i see you and when i talk to you
the tears just threaten to spill over
and it all boils down to a crazy four letter word that makes you lose your sense of reality.

i'm sorry D. i know its not fair for you

2009-01-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

thanks for your present D.
i dint expect you to spend so much on me...
and i know for one that the present wasnt just off the shelf thingo... you went choosing the pendant and the chain. i love it. thanks((:

*******************************************************************************
you dunno how i felt when i saw you sitting there,
looking so happy with your girlfriend
my tears were just that little bit away from spilling out
i know its impossible, but you still appear in my dreams
what am i supposed to do?

2009-01-02T16:23:00.000+08:00

first day of school is fun and retarded
hahahhaa
tchrs are not bad actually. for a class that seems to have the most ROJAK pupils on earth. imagine a class with LIT pupils, ART pupils and even one sec4 retainee?
wl right? oh wells
form tchr doesnt seem half as bad. ms wong. she teaches DEAR 3N p.e too. and some ppl HCL. yeah me am one of them ((:

bio is seriously RETARDED. strict but RETARDED. i was trying damn hard to STIFFLE my laughter throughout mrs gay's lesson. on the down side, which teacher ever gives HW on first day of school? my ans is MRS GAY

i havent seen chem yet. Mr kang. sounds not too bad. thats what most people say. i sure hope its TRUE. and ssgeog. from kashmiira, mrs loy soounds scary. but what to do, cedar's ssgeog supposed to be GOOD. so i'm just going to cross my fingers and pray like MAD.

as for maths, i suppose its good news... Mr ang? apparently he's one of the best maths tchrs in cedar? like i know for one, last yr one of the common tests, he set it and only his class could answer. so means he must be good. right? right?

lit and down to sng again. no comments. first lesson and little red riding hood became little red walking vagina. no i'm not joking. dont laugh. i'm really serious. wanna know how? ask the man himself. oh wells, at least i managed to grapple a distinction under him. thank god lit lessons split with Mdm Audra. heard she's not bad. again, cross my fingers and pray like mad.

now for english. i suppose, its down to relying on myself? what to do? MISS SIEW.

art is obviously miss teh. going to start olevel syllabus alrd. madness. THANK GOD I"M NOT GOING TO BE OAL. else, its craziness for me. look: monday, thursday HANDBELLS. tuesday ART AND GOLF, wednesday ART PIANO TUITION. somehow by some crazy miracle friday is still free. for me to do what? REVISION. there's mid yrs this yr. dont ask me why. and for some reason crazy school going even crazier and now got 2 PRELIMS at sec4. mad.

someone pray for me. i'm serious. pray for me!

2009-01-01T10:36:00.000+08:00

back from taiwan
and it was FUN sia...
hahahah.
mel's retarded. i mean seriously

AND AND mighty fortress... well, all i can say, we tried our best
lol. shop shop shop shop
mel! now i got blisters on my feet!
hahahah
and and TAIWAN RICH PPL HOUSES ARE DAMN COOL!
omg everything is AUTOMATED. even got automatic doors sia
wl

hot springs is seriously WEIRD
i dunno lah
but i'm not going to do sth like that in the near future
hahahaha. ((:

anyway, one of the best hols and birthday i've had
thanks damien, mel and axils
also thanks to D. for understanding
i'm so sorry i couldnt celebrate ur birthday

2008-12-22T14:11:00.000+08:00

concert was a success
thanks Jie, yingsi and sarah
for coming ((:
MY STRENGTH haha

anyway. it was GOOD sia.
like no mistakes like that ((:
and MEL! SABRE DANCE WAS WELL COORDINATED
congrats
hahhah

on the down side,
i wish you both came, A and D,
you know who you are.

2008-12-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

jie, yingsi and sarah coming to watch tmr
i'm so touched.
i mean its like they are each paying $12
and i believe its worse for sarah...
i shall not mention why

thanks so much people
its going to mean alot to me
YOU ARE MY STRENGTH FOR TMR
so i believe I CAN DO IT

2008-12-20T11:50:00.000+08:00

sprained wrist. best. stupid F5 G5 shake, four in hand
tmr is concert. anyone wanna come?
tickets at $12. call me

songs are better. sabre dance "perfected". kindof anyway.
thank god
wish me luck for tmr

1 day to concert, 6 days to taiwan
my wrist had better be healed.
i hope

2008-12-19T13:46:00.000+08:00

fuck
taiwan is in 7 days time and the songs are still so wobbly
shit thats one week. one week to go
the mistakes i am making are horrendous.
and getting yelled yet, poked, pushed and scolded for the tiniest reasons
no matter how accidental the scoldings are is really putting me off, off, off
why on EARTH did i even say i wanna go taiwan

"put the bells back properly! PROPER PLACE"
"Ab ah! not A"
"wrong beat lah"

i know. i know. I KNOW
shit this. you stop stressing me and i'll stop stressing myself
shit. i need the strength.
Mighty Fortress. Sabre Dance. Zhen Ai. Tian Mi Mi. Rasa Sayang. Burong Kakak Tua. Carol of the Bells. Sabre Dance. Zhen Ai. Tian Mi Mi. Burong Kakak Tua. Mighty Fortress. Carol of the Bells. Rasa Sayang.
shit man. really shit
mighty fortress. sabre dance.
sabre dance. mighty fortress
these two songs are seriously... oh i dont know.

maybe this aint for me.
maybe i've spent 4 yrs trying to do sth that is not for me

thr breakdown last night
its like i really lost total control
the tears just kept flowing
the feeling of being... being inferior... it just overwhelmed me
thanks for the strength JIE.
((: for the 1hr 38mins and i dunno how many seconds

I WILL OVERCOME THIS BATTLE
(lord help me)

2008-12-14T12:19:00.000+08:00

i think i'm going mad
i look for you in the crowd
and my heart yearns for you
and yet when my eyes settle upon you
my gaze flickers and i want to hide
i want you to remember me
as the smiley radiant girl
not the broken ragged doll i am now

i want to be seen by you
be cuddled and comforted
and yet i do not want you to see
the state i am in
i want to preserve my pleasant image
in your mind.

afterall, tell me...
was the pain,
was the touch,
were the words,
all but a dream?

2008-12-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

quoted from mel:

If I were a boy,
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man,
I'd listen to her
Cuz I know how it hurts,
when you lose the one you wantedCause
he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy
You don't understand,
Yeah you don't understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her,
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you're just a boy

you start to wonder, how true the first stanza is. and how uncertain the second one appears to be

2008-12-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

looking for you in the crowd
yearning heart and soul for you
i tried forgetting
i tried ignoring
when that failed, i tried facing up to things
to get rejected
i'm a broken soul
a broken piece of mirror
a broken piece of mirror,
unable to reflect anything but my torn feelings
broken
broken
walking broken

you do not know how i feel
i'm lost
give me some light

but yet, you are taken
i will always be second in your eyes
i will always be last in your mind
i will always be behind in your heart

2008-12-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

oh crap what the heck is with the minor major and diminish! AHHHH someone help me!
blur sia. hello i'm only grade4... zzz
oh wells

2008-12-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

i cant i cant i cant
you have stolen my heart
why do you have to go away?

do you realise that the more you withdraw from me
the more i cant let go?
i know i am being unfair to alot of people
but i really cant help it
i'm sorry

2008-12-01T11:30:00.000+08:00

CAMP ROCKED.
thank you charlie for all your care!
once charlie, always charlie
may we never forget this friendship made
I LOVE ALL OF YOU LOADS

and already missing you all

and so... one month. one month and i still cant forget
the pain is still there
going insane
have i made the right choice, am i ready to move on
going crazy
and with 31 more days, will i spend my next birthday still worrying
still thinking
still remembering?

will you believe if i say i still look for you in the crowd?

2008-11-23T16:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday was FUN
haha CHEE-WHOA-WAH

lol
comeon marlene dont be like this
forget abt it!
so this is what pain is like

2008-11-20T20:42:00.000+08:00

so really... the end of another yr
i feel old.
it seems just like yesterday it was MY psle results release
seems like yesterday we were rejoicing for being the BEST BATCH
and now. 2 yrs have gone by in a jiffy
you start to wonder. have you wasted your time away?

visited primary school website
i realised how much i couldnt let go of all those yrs
it just seems like i am still the one studying there.
its still us who is forming the graduation batch
its shocking to know... that after this batch of p6 leaves,
i go back and visit
no one will recognise me anymore

ex classmates, ex schoolmates, dispersed
when we graduated, we promised to keep in touch
and now... we barely recognise each other
i wonder, will we still say hello if we bump into each other on the streets
and so the harsh reality of overwhelms us once again
i say to you my friends, treasure your classmates, your schoolmates
dont wait and say... we'll keep in touch in secondary school
because its always easier to say then to do.

2 years 2 years.
comes another change
class, subjects, and for some, even schools
have we bonded close enough?
have we appreciated ourselves and those around us?
have we tried to put aside the differences and forgive our shortcomings?
so many qns left unanswered
and yet the most piercing of all
Will we regret our actions? and will we regret our decisions?

we face a new beginning again. seemingly alone
fearfully wondering
have we chosen the right path
thinking abt where it will take us
and if go wrong, will we be able to change the tide?
will we be able to make a change?
will we be able to stop ourselves before its too late?
more qns for us to find the ans

now i know why people say
the ignorance of childhood is bliss

2008-11-20T18:44:00.000+08:00

at a time like this, my heart should not be faltering
but
i dunno why... it just is
i find myself unable to put down the past
all of my past
when i thought i had gotten over one, the other redrew
then i found myself retracting so badly
lost
lost
lost in my own thoughts
reaching out for both again
and i wonder
much as you are part of my life
am i ready for you?

what a stupid qns to ask at this juncture
what a time to view of it this way
i tell myself snap out of it
we're reaching one month
counting from the time i started accepting
just one more week

but yet... can i?

2008-11-18T19:33:00.000+08:00

i THOUGHT i had gotten over you
and yet i still find myself craving for you
and missing you

marlene marlene
get over it
you are somebody else's now
_ _ _ _ _ _, I love you

2008-11-17T17:35:00.000+08:00

tmr's dragon boating.
shit. you know how many tchrs are gg? 8 leh! means 1 per boat
SHIAT!
and JIAHUI(instructor) same boat as me. WTH
SHIAT!
tmr is die day

2008-11-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

today was urgh
i screwed up rudolf and santa during the auditions. super sorry
totally screwed up
shit
rush to school. had campfire auditions. well... that wasnt too bad. at least it was hilarious
then to handbells. new song. el condor pasa
wl play dunno how many times alrd. bored me to death
the rythmn was *vomits*
play until even i also blur.
then siam to musical props. scared miss teh scold say i shrug off responsibility
painting the thingo halfway some tchr came in with 2 sec3s
say whole lot of crap then complain we slow, never do the scene 12 thingos etc.
bitched a hell lot say wanna take the cardboard and go. argue argue argue cos miss teh never give go ahead. stupid people say they'll take responsibility, if miss teh want the things back they will buy for us. continue crapping that even if they dont have our props, wont die, will go outside buy. budget so much then why in the first place still need us. damn it. president and vice-president of musical so big ah? pris and me, we i/c of props leh... everything in the art room all under our control sia.
so now? waiting for miss teh to come down upon us.
if you are smart, you wont irritate me anymore today.

2008-11-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

simply one line describes my feeling
i'm so tired i feel like collapsing and what you've done hurt me deeply

2008-11-03T18:38:00.000+08:00

so today marks the end of 2 and a half month long work.
i still remember Pris, Evelyn and i rushing the proposal right before english end of years.
Tears. Joy. Laughter. Friendship. i will never forget everything that this project brought for us. Thank you everyone.

So... the prize giving ceremony is the day after. i daresay that we stand a chance for top 3. but even if we dont get anything... it doesnt matter anymore. after all, its all the journey that matters most.

I love you guys loads. The poem below is dedicated to all 7 of you. Especially to Priscilla, my ever so supportive best friend, and Evelyn, who was so positive it was hard to be sad arnd her.

Brought together by fate
we encounted joys and hate.
casting them aside
we build friendship, bonafide

Together we embarked
on a journey entrusted
between the seven
we made things even

First to Ariel
who made dreams real
helping with words and language
she gave us a guage

Next to Lingyi
who never made anyone shen qi
helping with odd jobs
she enlightened our burdens and odds

Then to Songya
who agreed mostly with a "yah"
Supporting and helping all the way
she practically made our day

Following that is Siti
who with 3-D knowledge made things easy
though she was busy often
she always tried to come frequent

After that comes Evelyn
she was so nice to depend and lean
reminding us to stay optimistic
she helped us to remain less sadistic (HAHA PRIS REMEMBER?)

Lastly will be Priscilla
she made our day simpler
leading us the best she could
she made the best helped ever would

2008-11-01T16:56:00.000+08:00

It's just so obvious that you have been treating me so much differently ever since that day. Am i not good enough? Or is it because you are letting me go now you've had your way? Or is it really because you're sorry and you can't bring yourself to do that to a friend?

When you told me, it just smacked me down. All the way. I got over it with much effort. And as i was climbing up, i sort your support. I didn't need it that way. Only as friends. And yet, what happened to all your replies. You claim i am paranoid. What can i do? You just shattered my entire confidence in myself and everything i do. You helped me when i was down, but now you withdraw. The impact you made on me, was far far far worse then i was before. I am utterly a shack now. Totally broken into bits and pieces. Thank you

2008-10-30T10:32:00.000+08:00

Why aren't you replying me? Have i done anything wrong?

Lord what have i done to deserve this?

2008-10-29T18:04:00.000+08:00

so 2 bombshells were dropped on me today

you know... i sometimes wonder why am i doing all the shit for you when you frigging dont appreciate it at all. not a word of thank you. or good effort. just plain complains. its no wonder ppl go mad under you. we are HUMANS, not INSTRUMENTS. or is your puny brain too small to even understand that?

and i wonder. have i made the right decision. or not.

am i strong enough?

2008-10-24T17:24:00.000+08:00

so comes the end of another year

2/I oheight will be bonded forever. at least i know for one, no one will ever make me forget this fantanstic inspirational ignitive class of 2008. together with 231008, it will be carved deep into my heart

yesterday was such an emotional day. at the beginning we were all very hyper and trying to make the best use of all we could. cheers, songs, cheers, songs and many many more. its like the class enthusiasm and class spirit was just simply radiating out of us. then the songs grew increasingly sad. finally after all the cheers when we started to sing linger, everyone started crying. it totally reflected our feelings, that we did not want to leave and we wanted to linger there.

its just goodnight and not goodbye. how true can it get?

then tulasi started hugging me. then we both started crying. couldnt help it, the tears just kept flowing. even sarah tan cried. then hugged many many more ppl. no one practically wanted to leave. the best was, lenis came over and gave me a letter. thanks lenis.

i cant believe 2 years could fly past so easily. i cant believe we took forgranted we had lots more time. and now. we remember and in those memories we will find our strength

"we were strangers, starting out on a journey,
never dreaming, what we had to go through
now here we stand, unafraid of the future,
at the beginning with you... "

so comes the end of another year
so marks the start of a new beginning

2008-10-19T21:06:00.000+08:00

i am not angry

i am just disappointed

you know how irritating it is to keep trying to get you to hurry up and move?

having to keep catching up with people?

i mean i know you are interested but hello? we aint there alone now

we have a group to ans to!

and next! i cannot breathe and you asking me to go into a crazy room with cramped up spaces?

nevermind

its okay

i know you are mad with me as well

disappointing. really

2008-10-13T19:56:00.000+08:00

wah so many things happen... now i dunno where to start. hahaha maybe i shall just start with results. its going to be a long post so people, please bear with me!

first and foremost the results... this is just the End Of Years. i am not going to reveal the overall yah.
English: 77.5% (A1)
Chinese: 62.4% (B4)
Maths: 77.5% (A1)
Science: 70% (A2)
Geog: 64% (B4)
History: 82% (A1)
Literature: 78% (A1)
so its YAY YAY and more YAY. its quite quite quite nice! exp maybe for geog but who cares! and guess what i TOP FOR ENGLISH. and for lit. i think. mrs lam gave me a huge shock this morning when she suddenly tell me.

okok moveon moveon. SO MISS CHNG ALLOWS ME TO GO FOR COALS. yay yay yay i love my group like super alot. CHARLIE CHARLIE I LOVE YOU! the camp is like kindof strict must great instructors and so on and so forth. but the group people is like super super super nice.

and guess what today i found out... i am still in syf. i am so very very happy. but what the heck. make me worry worry worry worry until wanna die then tell me i still in syf. but who cares at least i am still in syf! THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING. haha.

okok i tried to summarise everything for the sake of you guys reading. haha okay more details next time. IF YOU WANT. tag if you do, then i promise you i will post more abt it!

2008-10-08T20:18:00.000+08:00

hey people
do me a favour... imagine this

student nominated for Cedar Outdoor Adventure Leadership Camp
student went through everything she could to get the form filled up
student beg with parents
student postpone many things for camp
student submit form on time
teacher says okay and promises to submit

AND THEN on the day of the briefing
student find out that her name not in grouping list
student ask teacher in charge of camp why
teacher in charge of camp says cca teacher did not submit form

*RUDE SHOCK*

student finds teacher
teacher tells student instructor not happy student will be missing prac
teacher agrees with instructor, so
teacher never submit form

sounds like a unreasonable story?
then imagine no more
because it REALLY HAPPENED

student put in so much effort
teacher just not happy
teacher makes decision for student
teacher never tell student

this is called
teacher no respect for student
teacher NO CARE student

2008-10-08T16:23:00.000+08:00

today was a good and bad day
goodnews?
1. miss teh was impressed with out proposals
2. WE GOT IN FOR LIVING ARRRT COMPETITION!

and bad news?
those who knows... they know
i mean
JUST WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO MAKE A F DECISION FOR ME?!
its my life get your f nose out of it
just because INSTRUCTOR not happy
AM I SUPPOSED TO BEND TO HER EVERY WHIM AND FANCY?!
huh?! what about my own personal development!
YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I WANTED THIS
I PRACTICALLY BEGGED FOR IT
FOR MY PARENTS TO SIGN MY FORM
and you DARE to not submit it
YOU DARE TO DO IT AND YOU DARE NOT TELL US
YOU MADE US FIND OUT OURSELVES AT THE BLOODY BRIEFING
YOU MADE US LOSE FACE
sorry this is NOT for the good of everyone
THIS IS JUST SOME BLOODY COWARDLY ACT
this is crap
i refuse
to DROP EVERYTHING FOR A STUPID SITUATION THAT I MAY NOT EVEN BE IN
to MOULD MY LIFE AROUND THIS
this does NOT make up my life
bloody hell I HAVE OTHER THINGS THAT MATTERS TO ME ALSO
THIS DOES NOT MEAN I DO NOT HAVE 100% COMMITMENT OKAY

and you know what?!
I QUIT!

2008-10-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

frigging hell
so am i playing or am i not?!

rah... school tmr
shit shit shit shit shit
what if we get back our papers?! i am going to dieeee!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

someone save me... now

2008-10-01T17:42:00.000+08:00

slave drivers
on the day we dont have to go to school
1pm to 6pm
best

2008-09-30T12:38:00.000+08:00

geog was fine. thank god. i was beginning to think the teachers wanna kill us haha. level descriptor kindof sucked though. anyway i hate level descriptors ((: okay enough about exams. there's only 1 paper left on friday... maths. i think i studied like shit for this yr's exam. whatever the result, its MY RESULT NOW. and i dont care dont care dont care what issit. cos i have freaking done my best! i only feel i have let myself down for science. i studied the hardest for it and yet it still turns out to be my worse done paper. sigh. NO MORE THINKING OF SAD STUFF GIRL! SNAP OUT OF IT

its amazing how 2 years can pass so quickly. i am going to miss 2i. will you believe it? i bet i will miss those people that dont like me as well. how our class would cheer during jogging at the old campus. and because mus and sportsrep wernt there all the time, phoebe and i would be the one leading the class. and then we will cheer and cheer and cheer. AND the class would always not cheer in the beginning then scream our hearts out later. oh and how some people in our class would all of a sudden burst out in laughter (lee) and make the entire class laugh together. oh those were the days... those were the days... i cannot believe few more days and then... we are free from sec2 life. no more together as a class. no more together

the best of friends must part. i know for sure. or almost for sure. kash tulasi and i wont be together anymore. they are going trip science and i am not. sarah and phoebe? maybe? there's always a chance. no body knows. treasure your classmates, treasure your friends. wanping told me, margret told me, even milissa told me. and guess what i took it all forgranted. that i would never miss my class. the pangs of it all is coming. its nearing. we have bonded close together we did not even know.

2i 2i wo ai ni!

30 september 08

2008-09-30T11:57:00.000+08:00

dang lit poem is AMBIGUITY
wth

2008-09-29T18:41:00.000+08:00

freak
today's science was like SHIAT
i couldnt do half the paper!
and i did until i cried
best
i had to go and brain blank at SECTION A
means my whole paper is totally gone
and will someone just lessen my headache and tell me what is the correct ans for section c qns 3?
thanks

literature... much better.
thank you whoever who set that paper
xie xie from the bottom of my heart
mocking bird qns rocks.
abt discrimination!
heng ah
i could barely understand the stupid corridor
((: poetry was slightly bad
dunno if the poem is positive/negative
got ppl tell me is the father very love the child
bloody hell
i put that the father is a freaking abuser!
oh shit shit shit
but then again,
many people put the same as me...
anyways, gtg now... there's geog tmr and i need ta mugggg

7 papers, 5 down, 2 to go

29 september 08

2008-09-27T17:17:00.000+08:00

nice
friday night and i was alone
parents? 1 at work and 1 at F1
here i am waiting for you to come home. and there you are complaining the moment you step into the house about how ur company is working you like a slave
oh well you could have easily said that ur daughter is waitng for you at home
but did you?
NO
and your excuse for that?
mummy and daddy earn money then can bring you on holidays
to earn money we must work hard.
i am no idiot yes i know you need to work for money
BUT I DONT NEED THE HOLIDAYS IF THIS IS WHAT IT NEEDS
frigging hell
i had an exam and i so frigging wanted to share with you
and i waited. yes i waited
and then you came home. 1st thing you did: tv
do you even know you have a daughter?
here she is putting on a smile asking you how was ur day and you ONLY KNOW HOW TO COMPLAIN
do you think abt how her exam went?
did you realise it was a frigging hard paper for her?
but oh wells PARENTS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT AND WE?
WE ARE FOREVER WRONG

27 september 08

2008-09-26T13:16:00.000+08:00

today's history was kena sai
absolutely shitz
goodness
write write write until arm almost drop off.
pity whoever's gonna mark my paper. hope you can decipher what i am writing
haha. i think its gonna be a wonder if can get anyweh near a b3 sia...
now i wonder how i actually got a 85% for this last yr...

haha. only consolation that i have? i managed to finish the bloody hell paper. stupid stupid flu and fever. thanks to god it went down this morning else my mum wont even let me go 10m near the school. weh. so in other words, i recovered for exam only. cos now my nose is like stuffed up and blocked. record break today... i logged in at 07.28.24... 24seconds and 28 minutes past 7am. my latest time so far. medicine and antibiotics made me sweat sweat sweat like crazy. in room with fan on at full blast plus wind blowing in like siao from outside still sweat until whole face wet and got water drip down the side. my shirt was practically drenched. bleahs.

okayy... 3 papers down, 4 more to go.
~~English~~, ~~Chinese~~, ~~History~~, Science, Literature, Geography, Maths

26 september 08

2008-09-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

god help me

what is my cause
what is to be my future
should i or should i not
or should i just simply forget

god save me
my future my life
and i dunno what i want